Dearest Father...

Dearest Father,

Many times i thought you're harsh to me
impending judgment of mine so negatively
like thoughts unspoken
questions unanswered
wishes sworn under breath
things like these
you ignored
and left me tameless

they say i got your talent
the piercing coldness
i felt
or was i just paranoid?
they say i got your manners
yet i never believe
i was reared
so close and so perfect
by your wishes
or your actions
not even by your commandments

years went on,
i never had the chance
to speak
i never had the chance
to tell you
how much i love you
despite the gaps
despite the silence
in between
where barrier
is growing
each day...

then one day,
i didnt know
i began detesting you
unnoticed
yet the nerves
are pulsating, strong
and seem endless
etching, carving
in my heart
the test for loneliness

two decades,
we seldom see each other anymore
phone calls,
are just away
but you can count on my fingers
how many times we've talked...
i sensed,
i was busy
i knew
it was a cul de sac
to reach you?
i'll try...

then one night,
in the hubbubs
of this world
something
is echoing
in my heart...
to let go
and be brave,
to forgive
and forget,
to be compassionate
and to understand

it took me courage
to fly the miles we've created
to bridge the ends t'was built
somehow, agony
and pain is subdued
overthrown by power
of Love
filled and amplified
by blood..
by nature's way
of resolution
of reconciliation

though pride is lost,
on the ground
beaten and sunken!
yet, the price
is an enormous relief
to know
that im at peace
with You, My Father..
everdearest!


Happy Father's Day Dad...







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