Friday, November 24, 2017

A Poem For Two Sons

Let me be...

My sons, let me be..
a dad that loves unconditionally
a dad that protects readily
a dad that provides graciously.

Please let me be...
your eyes when the path is blurry
your voice when speaking is scary
your feet when you're stuck badly

Please let me be...
a vitamin that gives you energy
a friend when you hit puberty
a drinking buddy when you're lonely

My sons please let me be...

by Tony Baradi

Saturday, November 18, 2017

Happy Birthday To My Mother, Fe Deus (2017)

It's 11:42 PM Manila Time.

Yep, I've greeted you over the phone, had a video call with you and the family earlier.

But before I lay down to sleep tonight, I went to the chapel,

and prayed.

I thanked Him for giving you to us.

I thanked Him for His endless blessings,

For  giving you the strength and life, that until now you still possess

despite the illnesses and struggles.

I thanked Him for your smile, and your reassurance.

There are no words to describe how you are so wonderful.

Most of all, I thanked Him - because you had us molded to have the true faith,

in our younger years, and until now - that we're adults already.

You instilled in us the reverence and the importance of the true gift - our sacred calling,

in the church.

Thank you, Mother. You are simply beautiful.

I love you.

Here's a song - I want to dedicate to you on your special day.

Happy Birthday po.


Twitter Account Hacked?

I wanted to capture to this, a moment of infused emotions of intense dislike, confusion and regret.

Yes, I can't log-in or cannot even retrieve my twitter account @macdeuz.

It all started when I was  browsing my twitter follower - and then I discovered the dark side of twitter.

It's called the alter universe or the pornography of twitter. I'm writing an article about this, in detail - with vivid samples of captured images or videos. Soon to be published.

It's going to be a huge exposé.

But, all is lost now, that account which has some approval and DM trails with some of those involved in this dark side of twitter who shared their views, provided their insights and gave their consent to be published... were lost, just in a snap.

Probably - this exposé was intercepted, some where along the way.

My main concern right now is - I can't retrieve my account. Another bad news is - I wasn't able to save my feed and DMs. Which were all instrumental (or shall be) for my documentation.

For now - please follow my FB page @macdeuz and IG @billymacdeus


Wednesday, November 08, 2017

What Have I Learned in October 2017?

As the political influence of President Duterte increases, my personal thoughts of learning for the month of October continues to occupy a sense of appreciation as this year approaches its end.

#1. It's a realization again that I should've pursued Bitcoin Mining back in the days when it was just new. I remembered setting up my own program ala-torrent- style, leaving it running even when your're away from your computer to do its own thing. I wasn't consistent and didn't pursue it, and now I'm feeling sorry for myself because of the missed opportunity. Yeah! Bitcoin is more than 250 thousand pesos now - this 4th quarter of 2017.

#2. I think I have been suppressing my self to fall in-love, again. Hahaha! It's definitely a  feeling not to entertain in these trying times. I think it is a mutual respect for the two individuals to carry a more-than-civil type of relationship given that the description of intimacy is more-than-friends-but-less-than-lovers. Maybe, I've been used to these types of companionships/relationships? It was because - their feedback for me when it comes to love - I'm more of the uncommitted guy, waiting for the friendship to blossom into a deeper, more meaningful affair but i don't commit, or stop there once i feel that the other person is falling already.

... and the friendship is going to fade. Eventually ending up in ruins.

#3. I have been driving a 4-wheel vehicle for almost 3 years now, and with the use of Waze, i feel more confident as i cruise the roads of the metro and has even reached the provinces of Ilocos Norte and as far as Isabela (Cauayan township). Far south, the farthest I've been to is Batangas.  I learned to discipline myself by reflecting to my past mistakes in driving. Both in thoughts and in deed.

#4. Waiting is a virtue. Although waiting attributes to stress and depression, (like the longer you wait for something, the higher your chances of getting stressed out as you long for that something or someone, to shape up to your expectations), it's also in the matter of how you put more weight in the way you hope. In the way you treat hope as a virtue, it make sense to lean on to hope versus hopelessness. This month, one of the many desires i've been waiting/hoping to be realized came into full shape. Yeah!!! with matching extra points or bonuses. Forever thankful, to Him.

#5. Guarding the chapel never comes out of style, it's one of the holy sacrifices you can make to your own religious upbringing. Personally and literally guarding the house of worship from 11pm - 4 or 5am (Manila Time), on a Sunday. It has ingrained in me as an adult the importance of putting reverence and concern to the house of worship.

#6. Raw emotions come out in solitude. Temperance in anger blasts no matter how you try to control it, doing damage to anyone who tastes the wrath it provides. This is something i'm working on to pacify and control.

#7. Rucking - Ha! I learnt this cardio exercise just before October has ended this year. It is an activity where you walk with a load on your backup. A load which is enough for you to complain as you walk farther - like more than 20 minutes of normal walking. It does give great health benefits to the whole body because walking keeps the form fit. It makes your intellectual meditation clear from bias, making you a more sound and logical thinker especially when you're in a knot of multiple decisions to make.

#8. Reverence ---  is a holy fear. A great quality that needs to be established as a leader  to their followers. Because your followers doesn't just fear you for the mere fact of fearing you as a human being, but for the sake of fearing that they will be at a loss and being unguided when they do not follow your will. I'm talking about the point of view in leadership on a corporate setting.

Those are my notable learning for October, i really hoped you enjoyed reading and that you were able to relate. Feel free to comment your feedback and your learning as well.


Monday, November 06, 2017

When I Stared Up Above...

The vastness of luminous dark grey, opened widely
as I stared above the skies.

with a moving tinge of white cottony clouds,
slowly passing through the starry backdrop
of blackness from above

and the distant full moon just alone, shining -
as if a huge marker of guiding light
from the passing clouds

with a ringless rainbow surrounding the dimmer light
creating a magical awe-effect to the mind
what a beautiful scenary, to look at -

on a peaceful guarding of the house -
for the Beloved.


Wednesday, November 01, 2017

Epigrams in President Barack Obama's Farewell Address 2017

(this came from my drafts, i have to publish it once and for all)

I watched President Obama's Farewell address live, via YouTube Streaming. I know I am apolitical  on the US' political scene, yet to the inquisitive mind, i chose to finish it until the end, albeit i came from a work shift and i should be sleeping already that time.

Please indulge yourselves on these beautiful and profound thoughts coming from him. I have to mention, he never looked at his teleprompter or "kodigo" while delivering his speech, that was my observation. Did he do his speech extemporaneously? I knew he prepared for it but to convey such address in almost an hour farewell is such a mastery. He delivered it with conviction, with heart, and creating a trance you get to gravitate with during the full course of his speech.

"My fellow Americans, Michelle and I have been so touched by all the well wishes that we’ve received over the past few weeks.  But tonight, it’s my turn to say thanks."

"Whether we have seen eye-to-eye or rarely agreed at all, my conversations with you, the American people, in living rooms and in schools, at farms, on factory floors, at diners and on distant military outposts -– those conversations are what have kept me honest, and kept me inspired, and kept me going. " 

"And every day, I have learned from you.  You made me a better President, and you made me a better man." 

"Change only happens when ordinary people get involved and they get engaged, and they come together to demand it"

"For every two steps forward, it often feels we take one step back.  But the long sweep of America has been defined by forward motion, a constant widening of our founding creed to embrace all and not just some."

"In 10 days, the world will witness a hallmark of our democracy."

"Our youth, our drive, our diversity and openness, our boundless capacity for risk and reinvention means that the future should be ours.  But that potential will only be realized if our democracy works.  Only if our politics better reflects the decency of our people."

"If you’re tired of arguing with strangers on the internet, try to talk with one in real life. 
If something needs fixing, lace up your shoes and do some organizing."

"Show up.  Dive in.  Persevere."

"Sometimes you’ll win.  Sometimes you’ll lose."

"If you’re disappointed by your elected officials, grab a clipboard, get some signatures, and run for office yourself."

There was more, but for now - let's enjoy the richness of his wisdom.