Sunday, November 08, 2015

The Essential Thought of Riches

“a purse is but a rag unless you have something in it.”

Excerpt From: Melville, Herman. “Moby Dick, or, The Whale.” iBooks. 
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Saturday, September 12, 2015

Of Connections

When you build bridges, you can keep crossing them.
~ Cameron Morrissey 



Lesson, do not burn bridges, you'll never know when to need one.

Thursday, September 10, 2015

The Replay of Intercourse

The Replay of Intercourse

Saturday, September 05, 2015

5:54 AM

Tell me.

 

When to open my eyes so that I can see again the pureness of how to love again,

But how come this heart of mine cannot imagine the beauty of your love,

Despite your profound meaning to make our soul as one

Am I the stone that has been defied to live and just function as the mere adornment

to the road of barrenness?

Or I was just so insensitive that I can no longer struck by the cupid's arrow?

Is it the mist of the morning fog that let me not see how beautiful you are?

Or my eyes are just clouded by the perfection I aspire for you to bear.

But…

There's no such as perfection,

There's no such immaculate tenderness - my soul longs for you to be;

 

There is reality.

 

Yet I couldn't fathom why my entrance to the acceptance of your reality

Pains me to sing the unison of your breathing.

It pains me to know that I enjoy the solitude;

That only in reflection after the deepest of meditation

Dawns me a feeling of emptiness

A feeling of unsaid heartbreak

 

That will stop,

 

As soon as I enter the cycle of journeying this life

And the path loops, it goes on.

And on, and on.

 

A replay.

 

 

 

Created with Microsoft OneNote 2013.

Monday, August 24, 2015

Of Love

I don't think love is changing or saving a person. It's about finding the person who's already fit in it. 


- Diggle (Arrow)

Saturday, August 22, 2015

Meet Winter



So I got him, back in June this year. It's been two months more or less. The joy and pride of having one of these make me feel more confident. Not only in my driving skills but primarily in dealing with the road. My perception changed as soon as I learnt how to drive, in contrast to when I was just a passenger in the jeep or minivan or any public utility vehicle (PUV) - which has been the case for most of my living years on earth.


Somehow, a paradigm shift opened each day I drive. Being empathetic now to drivers of PUVs as we share the road, that they too are just victims of a low standard traffic rules imposed in the country. Imagine the case of PUV drivers stopping anytime to get and drop the passengers - without proper stop and pickup points - that leads to the infinite maze of uncertainty as you join them on the road.

If we are to reverse the picture - it'd be more organized for PUVs to have Stop and pickup points along with rules on how many minutes they should be allowed waiting on those areas.

The above was just one of my observations - I still have more (which shall be posted) in the future.





In my course of driving where I didn't take a formal driving lesson - in fact I just learned driving via the help of my car salesman/dealer, I get to appreciate and be true to the rules of the road. Trying my best to influence other motorists by setting an example such as stopping at a red light despite in the wee hours of the morning on a crossing, where the streets are mostly empty. That even if no ones watching you, no traffic enforcer nearby, I still aspire to be consistent in following the traffic rules.


Winter is awesomely good, I get to use to him as I progress in my driving experience each day.


Until next post.


- Mac

Tuesday, August 18, 2015

Batangas 2015





It was that time of the year where summer days would really move you to get your feet out of the normal routine and drag you in the beach.

It's a privilege one though, an invite, actually, a self-invite.

Courtesy of the "operations" - a time to celebrate their successes and a time to unwind on a personal note.

I had a great time with it, a two day, one night beach and pool indulgence.

This is back in March 2015. 'Twas a late post.

Monday, July 27, 2015

The Day I Lost and Won

Be tolerant for those
That show anger
That show conceit
That show jealousy
That show trickery
That show deceit
That show hatred
For they are but souls
That are lost
That are in need of compassion
They are souls 
That need love
For they were lost
Lost in the turmoil of life
They need light

But if they resist, and still resist the second time
The third time...

Do not falter to pray for them
Always show them
That kindness
That they have never known

For they never experienced it


Do not give up to snatch them
From the darkness

Forgive them if they wronged you
Pity them for they don't know what they are doing
Show them compassion for they shall realize that the light and truth shall set them free

It's the only way for their peace of mind to be restored.

(A realization of trust and compassion to people on this earth so brave and bold - but integrity is missing in their walk of life)


<the saga of the forgotten gadgets>


Saturday, July 18, 2015

Of Heartaches (again)

Although I'm not in that stage at the moment, I just wanted to share this:

"Nakakabaliw talaga ang masaktan, to the point of convincing yourself that you won't fall inlove ever again"


Friday, June 26, 2015

Breath of Thanks

To You - I'm grateful of your grace and compassion

That when I whisper in my solitude,

You send the mark of conviction
Calling in to my mind, that you are here
For Me.

Your presence, I can always feel
Not only during worship services
But every fleeting seconds of my breath

Letting me know that,
You are the one true God
The everlasting Almighty

There is nothing that can compare
How your love manifested
All these years in my life


Thank you for I am in your care
Thank you for keeping me in your shelter
Thank you for everything

You have been there in times of sadness
You have been there in times of tears
Allowing me to see the light despite the world is hopeless


You were there when I felt victorious
You were there to lift me up when I was down
You were there giving me the inspiration when all odds are everywhere

Thank you was the silent whisper in my heart
Thank you was the constant phrase I murmured in my prayers
Thank you O God - forever.

Tuesday, June 16, 2015

The Franchise Of Side B

Fleeting moment of silence from the distance
Echoing silently in pain within the ebbs of solitude
Asunder into pieces as if the heart breaks into a million shattered glasses
Piercing,
Tearing,
Numbing,
Until there's nothing left
But a wry apathy of gaze
An empty empty intent look
In the horizon

Where only the limitless thoughts
Of imagination 
Can fathom -
What's deep within.. Was it?

Troubles,
Or 
Just the mere cacophony of uneventful panorama
and
Encounters
of this sojourn

Sunday, June 07, 2015

The active volcano and the hoboabs


was motionless for an instant, he did not cry out, He fell as gently as a young tree falls


Let me know, hit me up if you remember that.

... and tell me where.

Monday, June 01, 2015

Words of the Wise: Of Birthdays

Make time for your Mom on your birthday, it's her special day too!


-mac

Friday, May 08, 2015

Of Sensitivities

As per my friend Jhonathan, left handed people are sensitive.

Sunday, April 19, 2015

View from the back

Take time to see the simple things, and appreciate its splendor, its meaning, and realize the appreciation. 

For through simple things, just by looking the horizon and staring up above, you can find the awe and serenity that your soul needs.




Backyard moments.

- Mac


Of Wisdom

Of Greed

Of Saying Thanks



Monday, April 13, 2015

Of COC moments

Megastar playing COC - clan fatal point




.... Megastar Sharon at its finest πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚




Friday, April 10, 2015

Mind and the Battle of Imagination

Oh lips... 
So tender
Allow me to gently
kiss.. That sparkling gloss
to let me feel
the warmth of
your breath that
I wish to hear
To let my heart
Murmur
in your ear...
Music of
solemn praise
Reaching to your
Heart
Vibrating to your mind
Until such time
That the waves
Of intensity
Shall be
In unison to mine
Where I can
Finally touch you
And embrace you
While we lose
Ourselves
In to
the oblivion
Of eternal passion...





-mac
(Just about to sleep, thinking of wonderland and the temptations that alight in the blurry vision of this vulnerable soul, yet with the strongest heart to fail not HIS expectations)

Don't forget to pray before you snuggle in slumber...


Saturday, April 04, 2015

Of Love and Heartaches: Moving On After A break-up (2-easy steps)

Work is the best cure for worry. And for heartbreak, throw yourself into your tasks, and don't berate yourself for foolishness. Every man makes his share of mistakes in that area.
~Tom Badgerlock





One of my girl friends (a co-officer in church) texted me out-of-nowhere asking me how can she move on from the heartache that cost her relationship shatter in to pieces. Fast fact: a love affair ended 4 or 5 years ago.





I just couldn't believe it! I was thinking that anyone should be able to move on 6 months to 12 months max, that easy and smoothly. It 's still a gaping shock to think that spending that long process to accept the state of break-up could really dwindle in to a temporary infinity.

I had to call my friend that night and listen to her story (me doing a DR LOVE), and she confessed the wonderful love affair - a mind bending expectation that everyone feels when you are in love and the other person returns the love. It's an indescribable feeling, the cliche goes.

Given her rationale and the unquestioned status of how they love each other - at some point, her boyfriend suddenly fell out of love.

A period of silence between us, i could almost hear her heart beating, the inhale/exhale vibration. And from that point alone, without me seeing her in person, I was in total agreement that she is still in pain. That she couldn't get past through her past heartbreak.

Deep inside, i cursed the guy (although i don't know him). Well, as a matter of sympathy for my friend and not to despise on her current situation.


And so, my current of advice ripped in, through coaxing way of conveying to her.

1. Do you still love him?
- She said yes, i told her to stop loving him only when you had a closure ending negatively (read my explanation later for # 2). Easier said than done. True! But let's start it there, the conviction to teach your mind and heart to put an end to the feelings for that guy simply connects the nerve endings to be in alignment to your vision of really unloving the other person.


2. Did you guys have a closure?
- None yet. "patay tayo diyan..." laughingly i murmured. So i asked her to schedule a closure talk with him the soonest.


- She asked, "What am i going to say during the closure moment?"

a. Ask, "what made him fall out of love? "
  • Let him speak and elaborate. 
  • Do not defend or counter what he would say. 
  • After his statement, ask him what could have been done by you for it not to happen. 
  • Do not interrupt him or present your judgment. 
  • Remember, you are there not to argue or dispense your madness, you are there to further understand the root cause of why he fell out of love.

b. Ask, What are the possibilities of us getting back together?
- She answered with a big WHAAAT? when i said this. 
You were there too to try to win him back, let's be frank. 
  • The easiest way to solve a heartbreak is to patch up and make your heart see the normal status quo. The hardest way is to go the other way - nursing a broken heart.
  • It is not a symbol of degradation or losing self-respect especially for women to ask this question - it's actually a courageous act that strong women possess. (I had a similar case with my ex before and she asked me this, and i consider her that strong). 
  • The point of asking this question is to test the waters how's the possibility of reviving the relationship - which can be pondered later if it's worth reviving or not. (this is applicable primarily for men).

c. Ask, "How do you want us to treat each other?" (Whether he answered positively or negatively from question b).
  • This part is actually where setting of expectations come in to picture. 
  • You ask him first what are his expectations before you share yours. 
  • Of course, you know yourself more than anyone else, and make sure you assert your rules and not his rules. 
  • Following that direction, you are safe to be at peace with yourself when you will undergo the "moving on process" (incase he answered negatively), and you are also safe to secure your newly revived relationship (incase he answered positively).

d. Ask, "Can i kiss you one last time?"
  • I dunno if i was having the cupid imagination when i said this to her. 
  • But probably this is an optional item. But if i were a guy... who was heartbroken and i wanted her back soooooooooooooo badly, I'd beg and explain, for me to be at peace in the disengagement of our love story - i want to end it not with bitterness but a serene memory by parting it with a kiss.


Fast forward... we ended up laughing with my friend. I'm glad was able to relieve some of her burdens.




~ MAC
(feel free to get in touch if you have some queries, mac.deuz@gmail.com or call me for you to hear my deep bedroom voice) he he he he!










quote on relationships


Monday, March 30, 2015

Sunday of March


Waiting ...

Still waiting patiently...

For the clash to load...

Hahaha! 

Friday, March 27, 2015

The Wedding Singer

After such a long hiatus doing a part of the choir for an iNC wedding, I guess this experience would come to haunt me again and again in the future acts of weddings. 

Previously, we have to laugh, yeah including those in the choir loft because the groom earlier had difficulty pronouncing "aking ibinibigay ang singsing na ito" to his would be bride while exchanging their vows in front of the officiating minister. He got rattled I guess, while delivering those words of vows.. If I ain't mistaken, he has to try at least thrice of four times. 

This is not to put the newly weds in a negative highlight but I was just impressed on how he handled such momentous event in his life. Even the congregation who came to witness the holy gathering was laughing in tears.

Overall, the wedding was absolutely glorious, they sure made a lovely couple.



- Mac

Friday, March 20, 2015

Pocari Sweat Water

I've been seeing this as a grab a drink essentials from one of my buddies in Almanza Las PiΓ±as back then. I was just ignoring it because I thought it was just a fav. But one day, after leaving Lpc and now staying in Imus, i felt so thirsty (just right after having my choir duty at church) and I couldn't bear it any longer, like I was about to shrink with my need of water. Tongue-out like a dog, I went straight ahead to the nearest convenience store and my eyes and my hands coordination got tempted by the water below as it was so cold when I touched it and it was so sparklingly clear when my eyes gaze it from the glass pane of the cooler.


It's just a wonderful feeling, maybe because I was so thirsty that I gulped it down in less than a minute straight or maybe because the taste is so indescribable I want to get a hold of this with so much load in my mouth. Hahaha! It has a different taste! It's clear water but the taste, uhm! Yeah so so so nice to the taste buds. It's like a lemonade but it's not, it's like a super class A lemonade 30% with 70% water solution.


It hydrated me immediately. I felt high like I was super happy. Try it yourself, it's actually more often seen at 711s. It's where I saw my buddy used to buy it from.










-Mac

Where Do Broken Hearts Go?

This is a guest post from a friend, let's name her with a sobriquet - dilaw na rosas. It does hurt when your heart gets broken - so they say. But if I may, it's just a choice of thinking, whether you allow your mind and emotions to be pained, your soul to be crushed or wallow in bitterness. They say too that you have to feel the pain and get through it in order for you to move on. But heck, again, that's just a choice of thoughts. As a sojourner - it's true that we feel different man-made named emotions such as hatred, loneliness, emptiness, worry, delusion, being fooled, maltreatment and the list goes on - the norm negativity thoughts, however, these what makes one enhances the essence of living - it's what makes life meaningful, it's what makes one appreciates the opposite of those negativities - for us to feel and see the beauty of happiness, contentment and see the promise of hope. 

Let's read her story and here how it goes:


"Where do broken hearts go?" 🎢🎀This was a famous line from Whitney Houston's epic heartbreaking song. My question is - " saan nga b?" My first heartbreak was last December of 2013. After 7 long years of dating only 1 guy since college it was surprising that i felt numb but felt so painful inside. Maybe, i love him so much. That we were best of friends and we shared a lot of memories together. You wished that he will be your first and last. I prayed to God when we met last May 2005 that if we're meant to be then keep him in my life, but if he will just hurt me then don't let this person do that and keep him away. Finally, through my friends intervention i was able to move on. Just a splash of light, the next day December 26, 2013 - a familiar face sent a message thru fb and greeted me since it was a holiday. I learned to trust the person and eventually love and accepted him. It was a challenge for us especially on my part since my family don't  know him and his facade is different from his personality. Only me and his family know true him. Months go by, after a year and then a green sign came along. It was hard for me since i will be assigned from south and he's from north. He assured me that we will find time to see and spend quality time together. 

After a month, he became cold, short txts, no I love you anymore until he advised that he doesn't want to see me for the meantime. I thought i died after that. While driving, i felt so scared and hurt. A lot of questions came into my mind but no one wants to answer. I just want to breakdown and cry in the middle of a huge room with people taking in calls. I usually ask other people "how are you?" But during that time i felt that if sum1 asks me that question i will just cry and drive going to nowhere. It was so painful, i love him and he means a lot to me. I always pray for him bec i know that im praying for my future husband. That feeling that you were not enough strikes me again and thinking of maybe he found another girl. Then a picture of their faces crossed my mind - my nanay, tatay, inang,my sisters, brother, my titas and my friends. 

My heart longs for that unconditional love and care. Who in spite  of the distance, they still love me. I maybe not be perfect but i know that i gave my best to love him.  Broken hearts go to where truelove exists. I was reminded that - "Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous, it does not brag, and it is not proud. Love is not rude, is not selfish, and does not get upset with others. Love does not count up wrongs that have been done. Love takes no pleasure in evil but rejoices over the truth. Love patiently accepts all things. It always trusts, always hopes, and always endures." Sometimes you just need to be thankful for the heartaches because God is redirecting you to someone better. πŸ’šπŸ’šπŸ’š



Dilaw na Rosas 
Sent from my iPhone

Puppy for Sale




Was walking through the store in our village one day and one of the fruit vendors offered me to buy this puppy. Worth 1000 pesos, I respectfully refused as made he further negotiations. Was wondering what breed is it. I asked him and he doesn't know either. 

Anyone knows ?



- mac

Wednesday, March 18, 2015

Reminder from Worship 09/28/2014

Let love and faithfulness remain in you. Bind them around your neck. Write them in the tablet of your heart.

For I've never seen the righteous forsaken, even their children.

Love with all your heart, all your soul.



-MAC

Sunday, March 15, 2015

Nachos + tomatoes

I am always fascinated by nachos - and then with tomatoes.

The other, I get to grab crunchy small tomatoes from the wet market.

Although it wasn't diced enough - it's sure gave me the satisfaction to my cravings.



Saturday, February 28, 2015

Newfound Friend

To You Ivy...

The sky is clear...
Stars slowly sharing
their light

And then this thought came
Crossing my mind

Not because I wanted it
But because you are special

Just like the stars in the sky
Beautiful to look at...

Inside, out.



-mac
(Your friend) - last night under the trees going to BBB

Thursday, February 26, 2015

Loyalty

Be careful in your plenty
You don't forget your creator
Do not lose loyalty to the truth

Be not like children any longer
Like the waves tumbling down the shore 
Forever changing minds

Be not of service to two masters
For you'd be bound to love and hate
One or the other - your love must be loyal

Never tire of loyalty and kindness
For your creator will be good to you
He'll protect
He'll answer
He'll rescue
Providing a long life
He'll save
And great blessings will com


-mac 
(Thursday worship service 02/26/15)


Tuesday, February 24, 2015

Remembering The Ones We Love (Family and Friends)

Remembering The Ones We Love (Family and Friends)
September 14, 2013 at 8:45am


People dear to us contribute a lot in our being...
They are the ones who cared and nurtured us..
   the ones who have made sacrifices to our betterment
   the ones who defend us from all hurts and pains,
   are the people dearly beloved but have left us already

Remembering them, brings back the happy moments
   the blissful days where only joy is very much felt.
Suddenly, we pause for a while, and utter regrets
   that such happy moments is but a memory to live by
   then, silently we cry...
   because we miss them... so .. so much
   then we realize, life is short,
   too short that we only have a little time to share,
   to appreciate, to mingle and belong...
So then we understand,
   remembering our loved ones will then be the only way
   we'll do in everyone's loneliness...
 



A guest post from Ariel del Rosario (choir director) - visit his Facebook.