Pasalamat Bago Matapos ang Taong 2018

Halos matatapos na naman ang taong ito
‘di ko namalayang kaytuling lumipas ang mga araw
nagdaang parang kaybilis noong ako’y mayroong hinihintay
nagdaang parang kaybagal noong mga bagyo sa buhay ay dumatal
lahat ng aking naranasan: mga ligaya at pait ng buhay
ay muli na namang mababaon sa alaala ng kahapon

Subalit ‘diko sukat akalain, na sa dinami-dami
ng mga taong nasasawi at pumapanaw sa araw-araw
ako’y malakas at buhay pa, taglay kahit papaano ang ngiti at sigla
Na sa mga panahong ako’y nagkasakit, saglit lang iyon -
gumaling kaagad mula sa karamdaman
sa tulong at patnubay na ‘di matatawaran.

Dumating din ang mga sandaling halos ‘di ko alam ang aking gagawin
sapagkat magkabilaan, sunod-sunod ang pagbisita ng mga tiisin
Nandiyan ang hirap ng kalooban
Nandiyan ang kakapusan kung minsan
Sumagi din ang halos kawalan ng pag-asa
Maging ang bingit ng kamatayan
Ang kurot sa puso ay parang di na yata lilipas
maging ang pagluha ay tila ‘di na maputol sa pag-agos


Salamat na lamang, at mayroong Panalanagin


Sa bawat paghakbang at pagtitiwala
hindi lamang sa sandali ng kalungkutan, maging sa kapayapaan
ay dumarating din ang kaligayahan
na kung sa akala ko’y dina matatapos ang pighati
masisilayan pa rin ang ngiti sa mga labi
Na anupa’t ang lahat ng mga ito -
ay pawang mga karanasan, karanasang magpapatibay
sa puso at damdamin ng isang tao.


Sa isang sulok ng aking puso at pagkatao,
sumisinag ang nag-uumapaw na kagalakan
lumalaganap sa aking kabuuan, ang mga katagang pagpapasalamat
na sa tuwina’y patuloy nalalasap - noon pa man, sa simula’t simula
magpa-hanggang ngayon - pagkat ako’y hindi pinabayaan.
Salamat po Ama, Salamat po Ama.





_billymacdeus



inspired by:

“life and the echoes of the heart: thanksgiving forevermore”

The Butterfly Effect

My love for you
... is like the science of surprises
... non-linear and unpredictable

For somehow
... it was i who left you
... and i chose to abandon

The infinite complexity
... goes on and on
... like the properties of nature

The clouds, rivers, trees,
... the butterfly
... flapping its wings somewhere in our town

Could soon grant the  power
... to cause a hurricane in Japan
... it may take time but it's all connected

For now,
... all we have to do is wait
... and see how chaos pans out

For when it subsides
... peace will have its place
... and my love for you

Is somehow,
... a scene
.. in the butterfly effect






_billymacdeus

Inspired by:
"Talks in-depth about change, butterflies and ideas in the office; with the appleWatcher (she)"

ClayGo: Clean As You Go

I thought I would never be posting this because it may appear as a show-off of one of my positive attitudes.

But the gravity of my concern to other people's behavior toward the environment is increasingly becoming unacceptable.

I am with high hopes, that through this post, I can at least raise awareness about proper decorum in dealing with our wastes, even as simple as putting your empty plastic bag of Chips (chichirya) down to the right bin or as responsible as doing a ClayGo - clean as you go, whenever appropriate.

For the past few months, I have been practicing ClayGo - which for no reason at all (prolly an inner force inspiration?), I decided to do it whenever I can.

These are some probable causes that I may have considered subconsciously in doing so:

• I felt the need to help the crew (say, I am dining in at McDonalds or Jollibee - I can see the labor of waiting tables and the countless hours of standing serving customers and cleaning up the mess left by diners. (By default, it was their job to do so, but ain't it wonderful to strive in helping them? And the sense of "pride" cleaning or putting the table in peace is just worth it"
• As a courtesy to the next diner who will use your table. You may relate that at times, fast food chains are queuing also, and the crew are so busy that the next customer sat inplace to the unprepared/uncleaned table already. In that case, if you ClayGoed - you have extended the courtesy and politeness to your fellowman. It may be unseen and no gratitude was given - but i'm sure - it will come back to you ten folds.

In a bigger picture - I was browsing through my Twitter Feed earlier and found this viral image captured by a Wildlife Photographer - I need not explain further...

photo: screencapture from Twitter @dodo

It's quite saddening - that inappropriate throwing of waste can have a magnified impact even to the deepest of the sea - as innocent and as vulnerable as a seahorse.

So, humankind - let's unite and make waves to practice responsible dealing of our garbage. Instilling this to your immediate family and or if you have the power of influence to a group of people or team - please relay the message.

_billymacdeus

"Be Kind - is enough even if you are not the kindest"

The Flying Of The Angels

Hymns reverberating in the hallways,
Hallelujahs and exaltations!
is all that was left in memory.


Thank you, for You have not abandoned me.


The indescribable feeling of elation,
i felt so constantly - whenever Your spirit pours
is all that kept me going in my race.


Thank You, for your compassion and love.





_billymacdeus





inspired by:
“Rehearsals of choir, past dusk although the day was fully loaded of services; Sundays usually”

Painting by: El Dosado (took a pic in one of my visits in a coffee shop showcasing such paintings)

Beautiful Art

Go ahead, put me to the tests; (with an s)
I have nothing but the firm grip, to hold on to your compassion

For when I bleed, I shall write beautiful art
and I’ll still call Your Name

And when the wounds have healed, I shall write beautiful art
and all the more I’ll call Thy Name

in heaven’s sake, afterall.




_bmvd ® poetry

inspired by:
“Late nights and early mornings when ink and the whiteness of your face are my company”