Happy Birthday Mother...

November 18, 2012 - a beautiful Sunday, hot, but with the breeze of November caressing our faces, these winds will bring my thoughts, longings and best wishes to you despite the distance. So here's my poem dedicated to you..

Dearest Mother

I've always thought about you these days

for how long since we've seen each other?

months... years already.

i've forgotten the last spoken words

when we had our goodbyes

but your smile...

the last time i saw you

has been imprinted in my heart

Dearest Mother

i know, life has never been that easy

deep inside, and behind your grin and laughter

i could feel the weight and the tinge of forbearance

yet you never showed to us, the weaknesses

instead, you showed us how to care

you strove to show us the goodness in life

you instilled the virtues of lawfulness

you taught us how to survive

Dearest Mother

i missed you so much

that i want to bring you in my embrace

and hug you tightly in my arms

i may have not said those magic words all the time

you may have thought i never cared

yet in my heart i wish to be the best before you

to please and bring honor to you

albeit in little and subtle ways

Dearest Mother

I could never thank you enough

for your unending concern,

for the sacrifices you braved

despite the fragility

for the support in times of sadness

although we are only forlorn

for believing in our own capacity

yet we are only lowly

for the love

despite we're physically apart

Dearest Mother

Maybe your grey hair is now apparent

i could still remember when i was a child

that you'd ask me to pluck one of those

a lot more similar to those memories

made me realize suddenly

to be with you in your older years

to care for you

that it's now turn to serve

Dearest Mother

Worry not for i'd always be there

you may not see me as often now

but my heart goes with you nonetheless

that i've always prayed for your better health

that though we are apart

may you always take care of yourself

so that when the time will come

that we'll see each other again

i would say....

Dearest Mother,

i love you so much.

Mother,

If you're reading this, have a great happy birthday! I apologize for not fulfilling my promise to be with you this week of the year 2012 to celebrate your birthday. I'm sorry for i chose to be with my work, i'm sorry that it's too late to change my decisions. But all along, you know how much i love you. In prayers and in thoughts, we are one. May you take care of yourself and your health always and most of all, the faith you have instilled to me.

- Billy Mac

November 18, 2012

Amalayer

This video has gone viral ...

Of Stitches and Burns

The ceiling stared at me

Unblinking, slowly enveloping me

As I hear my heartbeat

Contemplating, lying in my forlorn bed

Yet the ceiling sees my agony

Searing, thru my own eternity

Unmuted, the whiteness of the ceiling clear

Understanding without me explaining fear

Sympathizing on my silent whimperings

O! Ceiling ... Wished you'd carry the weight on my wings

I sided on my left

The wall embraced me so abreast

Almost feeling my breath

So close to the walls' caress

Four inches away my face against the wall

Telling me to go ahead... Cry and let it fall

The tears rolled down on my left of cheeks

Silently the wall intently watched so quick

Together, ceiling & the wall heard my sobs

The wall almost pounded with utmost throbs

I laid on my back and there the ceiling saw

The redness in my eyes ...

The vestige of tears

With marks, slow to heal

Poems they said are all unfinished

Like this memory carved not missed

-MAC

(You taught me to experience the bliss of muted ecstasy - witnessed by the ceiling and walls, with eight corners opposite each other to form the so-called "Room")

How to Configure your Gmail to a Mail Client like Outlook

With the overrated scandal about the Petraus affair - the CIA general from the US who was caught red handed due to his email trails about an extra marital affair via Gmail, i think it's just about timely to write Email Configurations; how to port your emails to Mail Clients such as Outlook or Thunderbird or Alto Mail.

It's imperative that you use your Gmail account to do this because IMAP and POP are free for Gmail users. As for Yahoo fanboys, you have to let your Gmail account fetch those emails from Yahoo first then configure your Gmail for Outlook.

Click the link below for a step by step process:

http://support.google.com/mail/bin/static.py?hl=en&page=ts.cs&ts=1668960


Thanks to Google Mail Help!



- MAC

(by the way, it's so frigginly hottie hot with someone right now.. hehehehe)

Sails and Hiccups of Yesterday

Inch by inch thy smile faded

With irk, thy hands trembled

Pushing away the monotone

Of lies... Of lies.. Of lies

Unsettled, thy intent to cause grief

Along the way, like the stillness

Of a windless night..

Thy curse, rebounded

Back at thy face, poker, sad

Luminous as the calm lake

Terrorized with oblivion

Of being forsaken, ignored and battered

Swimming, into a whirling "i can't believe" thoughts

Nowhere to go...

But whimper in sorrow

Crunching, barely bearing insanity

And yet, redeemed

Again by a mere realization

Of the power of intimacy

PS:

in here, i'm applying the rule of a persona poem - it's a dramatic monologue spoken in the voice of a character created by the author. the above poem was made by putting myself's feelings to another entity. It's best not to elaborate further to veil the mystery behind it.

MAC