December 12, the death anniversary of my grandmother, my beloved ever-inspiring "Lola". I was a bit stricken today, contemplating, not because of the rush happenings all around us for the holidays this December, but because something's going on which i couldn't fathom. Then it dawned on me that it's the death day of my dearly loved Lola.
A tear dropped, how i missed her. She meant so much for me because it was her who raised me, partly and as a whole. It was her who instilled the different virtues and values. It's inspiring to go back and remember that one of her favorite music videos in MTV was Janet Jackson's Together Again, she was around at the age of 60+ that time when we were always watching MTV Asia Hitlist, back in the days when the VJs were Mike Kasem, Nadya Hutagalung and Donita. She loved Donita so much, that whenever she turned on the TV, she'd tune in to MTV Most Wanted.
You may find her hip due to her fascination in watching MTV and her indulgence with the arts and literature (yuppers, she was the one who taught me how to appreciate books, prose and poetry) but she was a downright greenThumb also, has her mini garden with a plethora of cactus of different varieties. Her love of nature and dogs and cats and chickens and pigs (you know the province lifestyle) made me truly more adore her now that i'm an adult. Her sereneness and perspective towards life back then when i was a child seem not to be of great importance, but as i reminisce her qualities now, it came rushing to me instantly with awe and nostalgia. I can't help but relive the moments which can only be remembered in the threads and carvings of memory.
Here's a song for you Lola Socorro....
I miss you much.
-MAC
