"From each according to his abilities, to each according to his needs. "
There are times that i'm afraid of change, it suddenly creates a biting sensation in the deep recesses of the mind. It tries to make hollow emotions just by thinking of the future upon enacting such specifics in what you've been accustomed to. The effect ofcourse is relative to the point of view in each of us. Yet, i'd consider that the heart suffers the most... (rebuke me if i'm wrong).
Just recently, I made a course of change in my routinary Friday's activity, at first it was so difficult to come up with a solid decision; it's like a "to be or not to be" thinking. Executing just by the thought of it makes me realize immediately the goodness or the profound joy of being part of it; not wanting to let go suddenly springs out to hold back in making that step forward.
I have to change location, this is a big issue besides the fact that i'm leaving my friends and people who are close at heart i've known and cherished by the instrument of faith. I call these brothers. But thinking out of the box, the pain cuts deep because of the mere thought that change is going to happen where i have been part of that whole, and leaving is absolutely creating not only tinge of melancholy but a whole lotta courage to face the resolute theme of "parting ways".
So what has made me push in realizing this step? It's easier said than done, really! When i asked my duly respected mentor and brother in faith to get a transfer out; i find it hard to speak, like there's a puffiness in my throat that doesn't let me speak it out. I had to rake in through my memory lane of the pros in changing loc. Thus i achieved the courage to simply put my declarative in a sentence; i looked into the eye but i could feel the sudden change of atmosphere in us. (or probably i was dreaming?)
I learnt that to make the change happen, i have to think of the advantages it has to offer. Focusing on it, envisioning the physical big picture, creates excitement and allure to command those emo thoughts to die in peace. Letting the flow of the "i like to make it happen" feeling into an intensifying action.
There you go, i left and bid my goodbyes. And i'm into this new location now. Meeting new people, learning forever in this life.
~mAc
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