No duty is more urgent than that of returning thanks.
As i was in solitude on a late night walk, where the coldness is sumptuously penetrating to the bones, i barely noticed how many times i've rounded the park where i was strolling, for my thoughts are actively meddling with the past.
Literally, i was reminiscing the days when 2010 began last January 1st. So much have happened in a course of a year. We would always say, time flies!, and here we go again, another year to come to an end - bursting with so much energey that the days are counting swiftly to mark the end of the year, two thousand and ten.
My age is almost beaten out from the days of the Gregorian calendar. Two more years to go and i'm off (to where? hehehe).
This year is another year to cherish, while it's true that no same days are alike to each other, all the more that i could say with conviction that this year is no ordinary at all.
Personally, i'm satisfied that i was able to maintain consistency in posting to this blog despite the rush and hecticity of working overseas. I could say with relish that it squelched some of the the hunger for _ _ _ . (hahahah). Honestly, it helped a lot in diverting my thoughts from the "bayang sinilangan" whenever i felt the urge to go home. I have a lot more to tell about my experience in blogging but i'll dedicate a sole post intuit sometime soon.
What else?, spiritually and emotionally, i'm feeling deprived but not to the maximum levelacious (quoting Nicolehiyala), i stood firm on my ground based on my assessment of myself; at times i go beyond the mark but this makes me more humane, bound to beg love and forgiveness from the Creator.
Family wise? i've always wanted peace and harmony, cares and devotion of hope for my mom and dad, for my bro and sister, and to my close-at-heart (can be counted on the fingers) relatives. All these were rocky at times, but hell may come loose, it's the reality of life. I thank Him for keeping them in their sacred duty. But my heart went to pieces as i recall that one of 'em got casted out. I founded a d.p, but i failed, it was never realized. (i would soon like to reconstitue it- would be included in my top priorities next year). Overall, my heart pours with gladness for everyone of us are still intact.
Work related, so much so good, i'm seeing the brighter side of it, this year offered two main opportunities for me to experience new things. I'm thankful for all the times my superiors have given consideration for the errors and shortcomings i've ran into. Although deep inside, some passions were never quenched, some flames were never truly realized to its full potential, that is, i would still want to pursue my goal to be part of the teaching profession. I left the call center industry last year, and this year opened me to the realms of being a skilled worker - laborious and hands-down with so much experience, it was totally a blast, nevertheless.
I'm really thankful for i got seldom being sick where none could attend to my needs (in comparison last 2009 where i had a major surgery). It's a profound blessing, one the most cherished gifts. I happen to ran into a car accident one time but it's no dice, we came out unbruised and alive.
If you're going to ask about loveaffair, i pass (for the meantime). I guess i'm never really recovered.
The tears and pain including the happiness and wins i've passed through on this year's journey, they all flutter, they were all temporary, like a passer-by in a late afternoon walk on a beach overlooking a sunset. But the essence of these all, is my gratefulness, my glee of thanks and adoration to Him, for clinging unto me in the worst of times, and for accepting me in my supplications and for extending without reservation His mercy and love.
There's a lot to be thankful for. It might be a hard year for others, it could be the most painful year for some, but in the end, the human spirit soars. Life we possess and the sanity we still have, are just mere ingredients for the great love He's providing unto us.
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